turmoil

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
courage to change the things I can,
and the wisdom to know the difference.
- Reinhold Niebuhr

I just wanted to say that I haven't fallen off the face of the earth. I have enjoyed my time away from school so much for the past couple of weeks. It's been so nice not to be tethered to a computer. It's tough to believe that my next classes start Tuesday. JP and I are going to San Diego to take advantage of the long weekend. This has been a long time coming -- we haven't had a weekend away since going to San Diego last May (unless you count going to the East Coast for Christmas).

I have been going through some emotional turmoil myself. Seemingly out of the blue, my dad has decided that he doesn't love my mom anymore and wants a divorce. They have been married for 34 years. Unfortunately, there is no talking to my dad; he has gotten to be a really stubborn person. I guess what hurts me most is that he never said anything about his feelings until he felt ready to bail. I do not hate my dad, but I don't respect what he is choosing. I'm someone who is fairly logical and no matter how many ways I try to wrap my brain around it, I just don't understand it. I am working to getting myself to a place of acceptance. My mom is going to be out here next week for an extended stay so that she can gain some perspective and try to begin healing.

So that is where I am right now -- learning to take one day at a time and accept the things I cannot change.